I will stand firm!

Man, it has been a long time since I have posted but yet so much has been going on. The boys are good, just being wild boys. Ryan and I are doing good too, just working, house work, and chasing those wild boys.

We had slacked on going to church for a long time. No particular reason, well yes there was, LAZINESS!! Well right before Christmas we decided that we were tired of being lazy and we started back to church. And it has been GREAT ever since. I had many convictions on things that I have always pushed away under the carpet and I have learned many new things about myself and my faith! As parents, Ryan and I have committed to raising our boys in the way that our lord was have us to raise them! We pray that they will grow up to me Christ Seeking men!

We had a "date-night" a few weekends ago at the church and it was based on remembering to keep Christ first in your marriage and in your daily life! Major convinction!! I realized that I wasn't really living my daily life the way that I should. I was still living more for myself than I was Jesus Christ. As a christian you can't do that and grow in your faith with Jesus. So I surrendered to not living for myself anymore and living for my lord and savior. And that was the best feeling in the world! I am learning that it is never easy living your life as a Christian, but I refuse to bow down to the enemy! I will stand firm in my faith and I will stand firm for our Lord and Savior!

I have come to the realization that I haven't truly forgiven some things that I should. It was more of a I'll forgive but I'll never forget. As a christian you can't do that either. You have to love like Christ loves you and you have to forgive like Christ forgives us. Which means that you forgive and you never look back!! By all means, this is a lot easier said than done, but then again, its not always a walk in the park living for Christ and being a Christian.

We started going to Wednesday services, and man, how in the world did I ever live without that mid week worship? That is what gets me through the rest of my week now! It is such a blessing!

I am learning everyday, the closer that I get with Jesus, the more the enemy attacks me. Which isn't easy but again, I refuse to bow down and back off! I will Stand Firm!!